shout!!!

pagi..i'm being shouted this morning by 'him'. *wtf*. dat day i asked for his attention. disappointed. he replied my msg n told me dat, if he focus on me, how bout his life, his job, his social life, his art. and the worst, he asked me to think bout it. how could he do this to me?? cruel!! i always ask myself that, izit "shzprz" still worth? msg yg paling myakitkan hati aku : tggu kmk pandey dri ktk.tggu kmk kaya dri ktk.tggu kmk cukup cm laki ncem.. see, the text is damn hurt me so much. kmk sik mdh ktk xpandey. kmk xplu kekayaan ktk utk mbahagiakan kmk. bukan kmk yg kaya,but my parent. i'm the parasite for my parent's wealth. handsome? ur look are enough for me. i don't falled in love to ur look but ur heart. i wish that u can understand wat i need from u. u hav change alot since u came back from singapore. but it ok. hati tok xkan brubah. i always love u!! (huuu..i'm emo). watever. life must go on. dear blog..only u and yaya know how do i feel now, yesterday, last week, last month. my mouth keep sing the paramore song - that what you get, when it rain & we are broken and i belong to me by jessica simpson. the song totally make my tears fall down. n idk why it happen. since i was been neglected by 'him' , i always in cool mood. i don't get angry easily even with my own sibling. amazing!! coz i'm hot tempered.i more to locked myself in my room until my tummy singing and i come out from my room for food and drink. i shouted like org gila in my room, on9, writing some craps, colouring.. actually i can't wait for end of this month. new sem start. ahak! i'm bored. bored. bored. bored now. i'm thirsty now. i want coke. i want black forest wif vanila blend. but can't. i got cough. huu.. feeling so damn now.